May 2009

Roller Disco

Roller skates, alcohol and dance music... sounds like a disaster waiting to happen. Who wants to come find out with me?!

Sequence This

Okay, this thing a perfect way to avoid work.

Contemplating

Font Envy

I'm desperately trying to find a way to justify spending my severance package on delicious looking fonts for which I have absolutely no purpose. But somehow I think my world would be a better place with such pretty things to look at...

SkinDeep

Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood

I so love living in a place where I can walk to get most anything I need. Need a prescription refilled? I can pick that up on my way to rent a movie for the night, after I drop my pants off to be hemmed, before I pick up this seasons hottest new jeans, purchase a new dildo, grab some lunch, meet friends for a cocktail, then pick up some groceries before walking back home. I love living in the Castro.

Vital Principle

I Reckon

A week ago a friend and I spent several hours reviewing the Myers-Briggs personality typing. We psychologically geeked out, spent tons of time going through each "preference" description and created our own scoring system to have a sense of how we fit into each of the four areas. Now, mind you, the official testing is supposed to be done by a professional, taking several hours and costing several hundred dollars. So... I'm quite sure our fly-by-night scoring system based on some short summaries was flawed in more ways than one. Nevertheless, it was damned fun and gave at least a vague sense of how all this stuff applied to us.

I've studied Myers-Briggs in the past and had a fairly good sense of where I fit in this typing system. I was fairly certain I was an ENFJ (Extrovert/Intuitive/Feeling/Judging). Seemed pretty clear. I didn't know much about the two center preferences, but I knew I was unmistakably Judging (planning is my safety blanket) and I also thought I was unmistakably Extrovert. I mean after all I'm fairly outgoing, I best work through emotions/problems by talking through them with others, and I often enjoy the spotlight.

Well, I was shocked to realized that according to the Myers-Briggs criteria I actually fall more on the Introvert side of the scale than I do Extrovert. According to their criteria (in contrast to how the words "extrovert" and "introvert" are used in common language), this preference has to do with where you put your attention and where you get your energy. Well I definitely put a lot of attention into ideas and thoughts prior to action. I tend to focus my interactions on a few close friendships rather than a whole group of friends. In contrast to the common usage of the term, being an I has nothing to do with being shy (cuz I'm *so* not shy). The biggest non-E characteristic for me is that large groups drain my energy/resources super fast. In fact I'm avoiding those group scenes more and more. I definitely gain my energy from being alone or in one-on-one settings. This has become so blatantly obvious to me since moving to a big city.

I'm naturally not a complete I, but my own experience and this recent reevaluation of Myers-Briggs leads me to believe I'm definitely more on that side of the spectrum than the E side. That insight is a major shift in my self-perception and I find it really freeing. I no longer feel that I'm demonstrating poor social skills when I'm unable to enjoy a party/dance/street fair more than an hour or two. I no longer want to give into peer pressure like "I never get to see you because you don't want to come out with drinks with everyone." I think I used to believe that being E was the more mature/evolved way of being and strove to achieve that. I'm now learning to better embrace my I needs and preferences.

Hello my name is Damon and I'm an Introvert.

In the end I'm an INFJ, and extremely weighted on the F and J sides of those spectrums. I can tell you more about those if you care to know, but the I realization was the one that was the most helpful to me this time around. So I'm an INFJ, what are you?

Retentive Dreams

Last night I took some sleeping pills and dozed off with the tv remote and some lube lying next to me. When I woke I couldn't find the remote, but everytime I fart the home shopping network comes on.

Cravings

Late night dining requirements: turkey club, curly fries, & chocolate/peanut butter shake. Overkill? Perhaps. Comfort food bliss? Definitely.

Diverted Dreams

Late last night while it was misting heavily outside I decided to get dressed up, strap an umbrella to my camera tripod, wrap my flash in a plastic bag, and do some self portraits on a cold/wet walkway while crying intensely.

That's my idea of fun. Oddly, I can't figure out why no one wants to hang out with me.

Handle With Care

About 30 minutes before my model arrived I realized I had a butt load of packing peanuts and this huge U-Haul box that were begging to be used...

Disturbing Admissions

"Did you know that you can tell if a gun is loaded by sucking on the barrel?"

Baby Steps

This shopping cart represents my friend's attempt at "slowly" reducing his sugar intake. Glucerna is clinically proven to reduce blood sugar!