When one is seriously depressed, one should not take "calming" agents. Last week I took some tea which "calms, soothes and relaxes." I was severely depressed due to some new developments in my divorce and was overwhelmed with my job. I thought that some emotional "soothing" would be nice. It didn't occur to me at the time that calm = downer. I was at work when I discovered this nifty little fact. Within a few minutes of starting my tea I felt the relaxing effect wash over me. This rapidly proceeded to drag me into a state of "calm" which left me completely defenseless to my depression. I ended up sitting at my desk just staring at my computer screen; not working or playing, just staring. I was handed edits to the newspaper (which was to be published the following day) and still I remained staring at my computer. Every once in awhile I would glance over at the growing pile of edits and think to myself, "If I quit right now I can go home and sleep the rest of the day." After nearly an hour of this it occured to me that my tea may have had something to do with my new found fascination with my monitor. After some an immense feat of willpower and caffeine, I made the edits and the got the paper out on time. Now calming agents are off-limits to me until I get to a more stable place emotionally.
| September 29, 2004 10:53am | 
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